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FYBF – When Flowers Bloom Again

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That miracle we were hoping for never happened.

It doesn’t need to be reiterated what an absolute farked up emotion grief is. It’s never the same. Its intensity is unpredictable at best. Ebbs and flows.

There’s not much I can do with this shapeless, dark void. No point resisting it. The only choice is to get through it. The best way my family and I can.

I’ve been lighting a candle, doing some meditating, focusing on love and hope.

FYBF When Flowers Bloom

It may seem futile and new age-ish for some but for me, it’s better than doing nothing and feeling helpless.

Being conscious of not over committing to social events or invitations, I politely decline so I don’t take on more than I can chew, setting aside any feelings of guilt or obligations to others.

If people care, they’ll understand.

Right now, it’s about finding comfort and solace.

I guess it’s keeping a balance of keeping occupied without being too overwhelmed.

Trying to smile again but allowing those moments for sudden outbursts.

Trying not to be desperately miserable but patiently waiting for those flowers to bloom again.

FYBF When Flowers Bloom 2

***Many thanks for all your beautiful messages this past difficult week, especially the flowers from Brenda and Mummy K. So grateful for the amazing friendships I’ve made here. I promise that FYBF will be back to its usual upbeat self soon***

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  22. Mandy, Barbie Bieber and Beyond says

    So sorry for your loss Grace, grief is a very personal and individual experience, how everyone deals with it is very different. There is no right or wrong way. 2 1/2 years later and I am still dealing with it, but it does get better. It never completely goes away, but you do learn to accept it and live your life and remember the happy times. xxxxx
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  37. Kylie Purtell - A Study in Contradictions says

    Don’t ever apologise for how you feel and the posts you write as a result of it. Grief is a funny bitch and it can only ever be taken one day at a time. Having had the year of Death last year I know that bitch well. Even now, more than a year later, I found myself tearing up when talking about it all on the weekend, and to be honest I was surprised by how hard the emotions hit me, when I was sure that the pain had finally started to lose it’s sting. To be honest though, I don’t think it ever does, I think it’s just the frequency with which we feel it’s sting that lessens. Sending you the biggest of big hugs and all of the positivity that I can muster for you. xxx
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  42. Lisa Wood says

    oh Grace, sending you lots of love with your loss. Sorry the miracle didn’t happen, but lighting the candle, being kinder to yourself and waiting {allowing} is so very good for the soul.
    Sending you lots of love xxx
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