Apologies for yet another, rather morbid post. I wrote this one awhile ago, during my “hiatus”,right before this new blog of mine was built. And it’s been sitting, waiting in the sidelines for an appropriate time to be published.
A little voice in my head kept egging me to hit that “Publish” button. Today, I decided to listen to that voice.
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What at first, seems to be an overbearing hardship; with little hope for reconciliation or resolution; I have consciously decided to reshape it into something positive for myself.
Losing 5 months worth of content, ain’t much fun. You can imagine.
It’s almost too sinister to believe that it can happen. But it has. And it painfully plays tricks with your head. You go through the “What if’s ?” and the “But, why’s ?” along with the “It’s not fair !!!”
But.
This is my new space and in it, there will be no animosity or hate.
I am done with the anger. Over the bitter feelings.
And in the end, they are just words. I have only lost words.
Everything else is intact.
The thoughts that formed those words remain solid in my mind.
The stories that shaped the sentences that, in return, enticed readers and helped me form genuine, beautiful friendships, are still embedded in my heart.
Cyberspace can take away with it whatever it wants. It’s yours to keep. Enjoy it. But you didn’t take the really good stuff.
All the backup I need for the lost content is actually right here, within. As cheesy as that sounds, its true.
No one goes to simply read another blog. We actually want to take part in a person’s life. Dwell for a moment in their feelings.
What I lost in 5 months worth of a blog, is just a drop in the deep vast blue ocean of what is still ahead of me, in my ever-changing life. There are so many stories for me yet to talk about. I am certainly never short of an idea or a notion that I want to share.
I also know that I’m not lacking in people who have met me through my blog, and have grown to mutually trust and care. Even in the real life.
So, I’ve only lost words.
What I still have; what I have yet to achieve; all that is worth much more.
That’s the stuff I’m going to closely cling to.
Yes and yes.xx
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You know it. xxx
Beautiful post, Grace. Talk about perspective! This is not morbid. It’s real, raw maybe, but real. I love these two lines the most:
“The stories that shaped the sentences that, in return, enticed readers and helped me form genuine, beautiful friendships, are still embedded in my heart.”
“No one goes to simply read another blog. We actually want to take part in a person’s life. Dwell for a moment in their feelings.”
I agree with Brenda, “Yes” and “Yes”!
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Thank you are two words that just not enough to convey how I’m feeling, Veronica. You are truly amazing xxx
Every moment passes and those words were in the past. Best to look at what you have here now. The connections and relationships are still here. It sounds like you are ready to let go and bolt forwards. So pleased you are back. xx
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Thanks, Lee !!! So good to be back. I’ve missed you x
What you have left is integrity. And grace…. like I’ve always said, true to your name.
No-one can take away your essence and your spark. We have seen only a small foretaste of what you are capable of… “just a drop in the deep vast blue ocean of what is still ahead of me” … so perfectly said.
Sad for your loss too. Because I know the feeling too of lost words. But you will find new ones. Beautiful new words will come. And you will go from strength to strength.
Love you heaps, Grace. xx
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Love you right back, Deb. xxx
Wonderful perspective – our blogs are not us they are just a piece of our lives. I look forward to all that you will share and create here and now!
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Thanks, Deb ! Look forward to getting to know you better too. I only hear and read great things from you ! 😀
A bit of time and perspective can work magic…so much better than living with your face squashed up against a wall of close-ups 🙂
Most definitely my favorite post on your new blog! Beautiful x
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Your face would look cute squashed up, Kirri 🙂 Thank you for always being there, my friend xxx
Beautiful Grace. I don’t think I could be as positive if it were my words.
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I was surprised by my own inner-strength, Jess. I think we all have it in us if we’re put to the test.
I know that feeling, not the one of losing content but the one of “lets just pack it all in and give up” it creeps up every 4-6 months with something new and lingers around, the best way to get rid of it is to press on with something else and throw yourself into it!
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Absolutely, press on !!! Delve right into something new and exciting ! Thanks for dropping by, Loldri !
“No one goes to simply read another blog. We actually want to take part in a person’s life. Dwell for a moment in their feelings.”
If I could have 100 to the nth power of thumbs, I’d be doing it. This is so beautiful Grace-ie. I actually want to take part in a person’s life too. Love!
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Thanks, Ava ! You’re definitely a part of my life now, just like how I love stepping into yours 🙂
“No one goes to simply read another blog. We actually want to take part in a person’s life. Dwell for a moment in their feelings.” True words, friend. I love you.
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Love you right back, B x
nobody can take away those precious memories and friendships shared through the blogs xoxo
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That is a wonderful additude….still I do a double back up.
Just cause it’s simple doesn’t mean it’s not super helpful.
Ah, i see. Well that’s not too tricky at all!”