This week, I thought I’d join in with Debra from Home Life Simplified and her Simplify Your Life 52 Week Challenge. I’m jumping in here at Week 9. No plans or commitment to continue with the rest. Let’s just see where this takes me.
Nevertheless, this week’s challenge is timely. It’s about “Going Easier On Yourself”.
I can particularly be my own harshest critic. And unless my husband reminded me to stop being so hard on myself, I honestly thought that I was only simply being self-critical, as a means to look for ways to self-improve.
Sometimes, when a situation doesn’t necessarily turn out as planned, I head straight to “fatalistic” mode. I am adamant there is no solution.
Mr Surfer thinks I’m being negative. (And yes, he’s right). But I would always (and still do) argue that I’m just being realistic. I tell him that I am in fact, preparing myself for what the worse can be.
I’m slowly learning that this isn’t the case. I’m finally catching on to the fact that I’m only having an endless, tiresome race with myself. And that’s not much fun.
I remember when I was in the corporate world, being hard on myself felt I was just trying to be tougher, more astute. To become more business savvy. To be as good as “the other guys”.
I would tell myself that this is what would drive me to be a better business professional.
How easily I would forget that being that way, wasn’t an inch of who I really was. Because I was never happy.
Even today, I sometimes find it easier to fall back to my old habits of self-rebuke.
I lament over my parenting skills; I panic about whether I’ll ever be able to rebuild my career; I berate myself when stepping on those blasted bathroom scales.
This time around though, I can catch myself. I’m learning to stop the detrimental thoughts that hold me back from being a happier, more content version of myself.