I don’t know if it’s because we had some major changes happening last week (the first week of daycare, having an extra pair of hands…which ended up being a one-off, by the way…oh, well…) but I’m finding myself in this kinda bloggy funk.
I’ve been writing. There’s a couple of drafts there. And I know there’s lots of stuff that’s happened while I was on my bloggy hiatus that I want to record and share. But I’ve just been stuck. I’m not so compelled to come to my site to post or draft anything on a daily basis. (Like I used to). I haven’t even checked my stats in almost a week. (So, so, SO unlike me). And with a big dallop of guilt, I know that I haven’t been participating as much in your blogs. (And for that, I’m sorry).
I thought that once I had my new site up, like a steak done both sides on a grill, I was good to go. I had so much to share. So much catching up to do with all of you.
But it’s as though, I’ve had a big car accident. And I’m really scared to start driving again. Even though I’ve been behind the wheel a couple of times now, I’m still overly cautious of having another crash. Staying 10 kms under the speed limit. Sitting at that “Stop” sign with the quiet intersection, for an extra 10 seconds. Difference is, I’m sure I’m not annoying any other motorists. Just myself.
I also feel that when I do write, I am second guessing myself. Wondering if anything I’m talking about here makes sense. Trying to keep things discreet, yet hoping that you guys can decipher my cryptic behaviour and get where I’m coming from.
I don’t think I’ve ever felt this meek. And it really sucks.
I’m hoping that it’s just a time thing. That in a couple of weeks I’ll be back on track. Maybe I’ll just focus on the twinlets for a while.
In the meantime, it just doesn’t feel right. I’m feeling disconnected.
kirri says
On my first read, I freaked out, thinking you had in fact just experienced a big car-accident!
I’m not sure what to say other than, maybe do what feels authentic. Do you need to be so discreet or cryptic? Sometimes you just have to jump right in the water and see where the flow takes you. Connect to reconnect? Meh….I have a personal agenda….I just want you back 100 percent!!
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mamagrace71 says
Do I need to be so discreet or cryptic ? Well, that’s the line in the sand for me at the moment.
I know I just need to jump in there. I think it is just a time thing. Just wanted to say to everyone, “Hey, bare with me…” Thank you for always being there for me xxx
Jess WhoaMamma says
Hey there, sweet Grace! Firstly, congrats on your updated blog, looks lovely and I love the name you’ve chosen ♥ I know what you mean about losing your bloggy mojo. You just have to go with the flow. Write when you feel inspired to share. Never second guess yourself. Write for YOU. We, your readers, are here because we love what you have to say. This is YOUR space, whatever you want to share is up to you. I’ve been on a bit of a bloggy hiatus too. Often when I feel inspired to write I’m distracted by mummy duties. When I do find the time, sometimes my mind just goes blank and I fluff about on Facebook instead. Anyway, just wanted to let you know that I’m here too even though I’ve been very quiet on the bloggy front. And thank you so much for for popping by my blog earlier. So lovely to see your smiling face in the comments. In answer to your question “s’agapó” is how you’d say ‘I Love You’ in Greek 😉 xxx
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mamagrace71 says
Aw, Jess ! It’s so lovely to hear from you ! It’s been too long between comments, my friend 🙂 Thank you for your encouraging words. It’s nice to hear that someone understands what I’m going through. Hope to see you around more often. And thanks too for the Greek lesson ! 😉 xxx
Bridget says
I know what you mean. I’m not feeling it lately either. It’s a bad feeling, like being a blog-quitter. I hope you get your blog-legs back soon.
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mamagrace71 says
Yeah, it’s such a weird, blagh feeling, isn’t it ? I’ll just have to get through this storm. I’ll be fine. Your posts always give me that lift 🙂 x
ava says
No prob Grace-ie. Write when you feel it’s right. Sending lots of bloglove.
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mamagrace71 says
Thanks, Ava ! Despite all of it, I am so glad I’m back reconnecting with my friends, like you ! x
Kristyn says
I understand this more than you know. I think it’s a product of seeing the good and bad side of the online world so fast and furiously (a movie title in there). But like K said, it’s going back to being authentic. I haven’t been on my Reader for ages now and the only reason I see my stats is because I haven’t had time to stop it being emailed to my account. I did see a huge difference between the stats when I was networking like crazy and when I stopped. It makes me feel better knowing only the people who really want to read me now are reading 🙂
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mamagrace71 says
Yeah, just as our writing needs to stay authentic, we soon surely find out which friendships we made through blogging are genuine.
penny @ Wildlife Fun 4 Kids says
Geeze this blogging bleh is going around. I caught it a little while a go too but I think I’m back on track, a few priorities have changed, but back never the less!
Just loving your new blog. I loved your old one but this, i feel, is more crisp, inviting and more you. Loving it!
I’m so glad you’re sharing your life with us again. I have missed you so much. Can I have more Grace with that?
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mamagrace71 says
Thanks, Penny-licious ! Great to see you back too !!! We need to have that Skype catch up soon 😉
Maria Tedeschi (Mrs M) says
Hey Chook, you’re BACK baby!!!
All I can say is swings and roundabouts honey, swings and roundabouts.
You do good work, you know that right? Your mojo will come back, for sure!
You are a class act Ms Grace. And I love your new blog title.
Love & stuff.
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mamagrace71 says
Thanks for the encouraging words and your support , Mrs. M.
Means a lot to me. And yes, swings and roundabouts is what this is all about, isn’t it ?
I guess I just need to keep remembering that. xxx
Joshy says
Watch the movie Finding Forester…. might not be related but inspiring none the less 😀 You Can DO IT! Chin up and go get em
mamagrace71 says
Love you to the moon and back, Josh xxx
Veronica @ Mixed Gems says
Hey, I get this feeling and I’ve not been through some of the challenges of the past few months. I guess it’s partly because I’ve been trying to write with more intention which is maybe too much extra pressure. Anyway, take your time and, I’ll still be popping by and keeping in touch any which way! 🙂
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Laney @ Crash Test Mummy says
Welcome back Grace. Write when you feel like writing and don’t push yourself. I only post 3 maybe 4 times a week now. I hope your mojo comes back soon. Surely a room full of bloggy love at DPCON12 ought to help 😉
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