***This post is written in partnership with Medela. All opinions are my own. All feeding breasts mentioned are mine too***
“Here. Put mouth here.”
Like attaching an electrical cable to a socket feed, the midwife shoved my nipple to my 2 day old boy’s tiny lips.
This was our first attempt and I’ll never forget it.
Whilst feeling excited, intimidated and vulnerable are also emotions that spring to mind.
Popping out my gonzolas for the first time in the NICU ward totally freaked me out. Suddenly, I turned into an absolute prude. But as it happened, a boob fest in that little part of the hospital was the norm rather than the exception. Nothing was too precious to hide or be prudish about.
Then, just as me and K-Bear had some brief boobie feeding success, the scary realisation hit me: I was going to have to do this all over again…but with two on my tits.
Okay.
Now, looking back, breastfeeding twins is really like riding a bike.
Actually, it’s not at all.
But persistence is something necessary for riding two wheels or feeding two babies.
I remember when that big blue twin breast pillow made its debut that on my lap, welcoming my two tiny babies.
The cold hands of midwives again handling my (no longer) precious puppies encouraging the feeding procedure to begin.
After a few attempts, they both latched then finally they started to suck. For a split second we were in sync – all three of us.
We made a perfect little triangle.
In those early days, finding that harmony, that rhythm, would only be a brief magical moment but it would be a start. With each feed, we made further steps in progress.
When I look back on those sleepless nights and endless days, I truly wonder how I breastfed twins. Especially on the many occasions when I was on my own.
But I did.
Even through the excruciating pain of nipple thrush, a quiet force of determination told me to keep going.
I had every opportunity to quit but I liked that special triangle my babies and I had created. It was intoxicating, initmate, irreplaceable.
My mother-in-law would often come over with a helping hand during those new born baby days.
She would take the responsibility of bringing each baby over to me, placing one at each of my side (now HER hands were icy cold!). She would hover over my shoulder, lovingly look at her grandchildren like any other doting grandmother. I thought nothing of it.
Then, one morning, in the midst of her usual task, she gave me an unusually solemn look.
Thinking perhaps something had upset my mother-in-law, instead she said,
“This. These moments of you feeding the boys. I will always cherish them”
If there is any similarity of bike riding to breast feeding it would be this:
The perseverance to find your momentum; to listen and work with your intuition; that the more you do these things, the more confident you’ll become.
Most of all, enjoy the journey because it’s one of those fleeting times in life that only happens once.
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Great post, Grace. I don’t know how you did it either! Super impressive. I remember being hooked up to a double pump for two months. That was all sorts of unfun! After two months of that, we managed to establish breastfeeding though. So that’s my advice: if breastfeeding is important to you, keep trying. Just keep trying. But don’t harangue yourself if it’s not working.
And to anyone who makes those breastfeeding surveys: you need to add an answer to the ‘Why do/did you breastfeed your children?’ You need to add: because I saw other people doing it and I am far too competitive to believe that I couldn’t.
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Lovely story Grace. It must have been quite a challenge feeding two at once!
Unfortunately my memories of breastfeeding are not so pleasant. I had trouble breastfeeding both my girls due to a depleting milk supply and issues with Popette as she was born premmie.
It would have been nice if I could have breastfed them longer than I did. When you finally connect with your little cherubs and see them sucking away, its such a wonderful feeling. x
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Breastfeeding twins is very special. I really enjoyed doing it, well, not always, but overall. I also did express, using a hospital grade double pump that I borrowed from the Multiple Birth Club – what a machine, so powerful. A lifesaver at times.
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Yup, those Medela pumps are the best. I wore out a few visiting the dairy while my bub was in hospital. How did your back go feeding two? Did you get much pain?
I didn’t realise it at the time but I did end up hurting my back. And it wasn’t until I started taking up running to feel the damage! All good now though. (Mostly!)
What a lovely triangle you three made! I can tell you will hold onto those memories forever. It is tricky enough to find your rhythm with one, let alone two, well done to you and the boys!
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It’s funny how much of a rollercoaster breastfeeding can be isn’t it. I know I was just saying to you the other day how had it’s been with Zee, and that I was really looking forward to finishing, and this week, well it’s been good and I don’t want it to end. I think that’s what I’d tell a new Mum, that there are good days and bad days, and not to give up on the bad days. I’d tell them that it will take up to three months for it to become easier, but once you reach that point you’ll look back and marvel at how fast it went.
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My breastfeeding journey ended early because of Hayleys allergies, but I really loved the bond that we had while we were doing it. I miss those days already and shes only 10 months old.
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wow, breastfeeding twins!! I had enough trouble with only one at a time, but it is a special time and over all too quickly….
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Well I will be breastfeeding again in 5 weeks time EEk so I’m gonna read all the advice above to make sure I’m covered third time lucky. 🙂
My advice is to relax and don’t pressure yourself to breastfeed. Look at it as a bonding moment with your baby, rather than a routine of getting your boob in your bub’s mouth. It’s a time for discovery for both mum and bub so go with the flow. Ask advice every time and any time you need it.
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Grace, you’re a champion I reckon! Your little guys had a good start. I was only able to breastfeed Bell for a month, as I didn’t have enough milk, and she was a hungry bubba, but it was such a special time xx
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I’ve always wanted twin because exactly this! I love breastfeeding and to be able to sit there with two babies, swoon. I did tandem feed my Third and Fourth, but it is different. The perfect triangle. Beautiful!
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