With my hair straightened and blow-dried, I precariously applied a light coat of lip gloss. I studied myself in the mirror one last time and thought, “Hmm…not too bad, girlfriend.”
The meticulous preparation and the subtle pep talk to self was reminiscent of being single and first dates. But it wasn’t. Instead, I left the bathroom and went to find my husband to ask for his opinion.
“Wow ! You look like a brand new person…” he beamed.
The moment his face lit up when I walked into the room, I knew I hadn’t just been placing tabs on myself.
I knew I felt good. I knew I felt confident and comfortable in my skin.
But he proved that it was also visible.
The new me.
Walking to the bus stop, waiting in anticipation, I was eager to meet up with my newly acquainted friends.
I believe that people step into your life at the right time for the right reasons. I found it to be true when meeting my husband.
Having only met these ladies once before, we established a connection in the first instance. So much so that I went home not being able to sleep – my head whirling with the possibilities of where the friendship could take us.
The only natural progression was to see them again soon after. To be absolutely sure we were on the same page. That the initial profound conversations were not a fluke.
And they weren’t.
We immediately picked up where we left off – sharing secrets, trading stories, planning goals together.
It had been awhile since I felt involved. Where my opinion mattered. Where my past experiences in the corporate world were considered valuable. An asset, even. Delving into the conversations – feeding off from each other’s excitement and passion – I felt alive again.
I know I never died.
This is not to claim that my roles as a wife and mother are unsatisfying. Or that my existing long-term relationships and friendships are inadequate. Getting caught in the humdrum of life, sometimes there is little time left for family and a handful of friends.
So, how is it possible that I establish a new circle ?
Where did the need come from ?
The unquenchable search to figure out my purpose in life beyond motherhood.
That it is possible to find an even newer lease on life…