Apologies for yet another, rather morbid post. I wrote this one awhile ago, during my “hiatus”,right before this new blog of mine was built. And it’s been sitting, waiting in the sidelines for an appropriate time to be published.
A little voice in my head kept egging me to hit that “Publish” button. Today, I decided to listen to that voice.
What at first, seems to be an overbearing hardship; with little hope for reconciliation or resolution; I have consciously decided to reshape it into something positive for myself.
Losing 5 months worth of content, ain’t much fun. You can imagine.
It’s almost too sinister to believe that it can happen. But it has. And it painfully plays tricks with your head. You go through the “What if’s ?” and the “But, why’s ?” along with the “It’s not fair !!!”
This is my new space and in it, there will be no animosity or hate.
I am done with the anger. Over the bitter feelings.
And in the end, they are just words. I have only lost words.
Everything else is intact.
The thoughts that formed those words remain solid in my mind.
The stories that shaped the sentences that, in return, enticed readers and helped me form genuine, beautiful friendships, are still embedded in my heart.
Cyberspace can take away with it whatever it wants. It’s yours to keep. Enjoy it. But you didn’t take the really good stuff.
All the backup I need for the lost content is actually right here, within. As cheesy as that sounds, its true.
No one goes to simply read another blog. We actually want to take part in a person’s life. Dwell for a moment in their feelings.
What I lost in 5 months worth of a blog, is just a drop in the deep vast blue ocean of what is still ahead of me, in my ever-changing life. There are so many stories for me yet to talk about. I am certainly never short of an idea or a notion that I want to share.
I also know that I’m not lacking in people who have met me through my blog, and have grown to mutually trust and care. Even in the real life.
So, I’ve only lost words.
What I still have; what I have yet to achieve; all that is worth much more.
That’s the stuff I’m going to closely cling to.