I’ve decided lately to start looking out for and heeding to signs. Sorry to throw the general random at you but allow me to explain.
A couple of weeks ago, my old boss sent a text saying there was a part time Sales Admin position opening up, would I be interested? Straight-forward desk job with mundane yet critical to the business responsibilities.
No chance to work from home, though.
Four hours a day, the job could be done while lying on a bed of nails. Why say no to relaxing acupuncture?
Yet, it was four hours that would eat into creative projects. Not only would it steal time but also my mental and emotional capacity.
And before making a decision to take the job, I had to think about what was I feared the most:
- Failing at becoming a writer
- Surrendering to the corporate world because that was easier than dealing with the fear of failing as a writer
Sense the fear? Not much sleep was happening that week.
Sydney’s Fringe Comedy Festival has started and to show my support (totes complete with solo fangirl Mexican wave), I went to see my comedian friend, Jennifer Wong’s show, “Feel the Fear and Fear It Anyway”
I wasn’t going to go but then I thought about my lookout for signs. They don’t provide any straight-up answers but there’s the possibility of seeing things in a different perspective.
If Jen could talk about fear through comedy, I needed to hear about it.
So there we were in a shipping container cum stand up comedy venue with a stage and spotlights. Things were a little tight and claustrophobic in there but that all became peripheral once Jen came on stage.
Her accounts were raw and honest. I actually hadn’t known that side to her which reminded me of that great quote:
There’s a kind of bizarre comfort knowing that you’re not the only one. Ultimately when it comes to the roller coaster that be fear, we’re all just trying to hang on. Get through to the other side.
I turned down the job and last week started a creative writing course. Wish me luck. Or show me a sign.
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