8 months into motherhood and I feel that the days are becoming a blur and there seems to be little productivity. This is frustrating because being a stay-at-home mum is definitely the toughest job I have EVER done (and let me tell you Sales in IT is no walk in the park…). Yet, I ask myself, “Where are the achievements ? Where is this all going ?” Don’t get me wrong. I love my twin boys with every living part of me, but bloody hell, they’re hard work ! I’m not used to putting this much effort and not really seeing the immediate return. I have my husband constantly telling me the results are forming, that things will get easier and the boys will soon be more independent. My reply is always (as lame and irrelevant as it is): “You’re not doing the breastfeeding…”
So, to try and put some clarity to each day, I am going to (ahem) commit to at least 30 minutes (yikes !) of typing into my blog every day (gulp !!!). No matter how tired I am, or how much exhaustion and sleep deprivation is clouding my ability to think, I WILL log in and WRITE.
We seem to find wisdom from those we least expect. A little while ago, unable to get an hair appointment at his regular barbershop, my husband went to an alternative place. There, he striked up a conversation with the owner about raising children and how tough the early baby stages can be. The barber quietly said, “Ah yes, the days seem to go by so slowly, but the years go by so quickly.” I know we’re not there yet, but I’m sure there are truth to his words.
I guess this is another reason why I want to try to stick to this blog. At some point, the stage of groundhog days will end but I will still want to have some record of what happened. No matter how mundane or slow these days seem…